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Blind Faith...

Stepping out onto blind faith is difficult for me yet today I did. I was told to make a job out of a job of writing my book . Out of careful prayer and consideration I made that firm decision to move forward with my book.... I am going to be honest with y'all that today I have felt peace for the first time in my life moreover, a total peace of mind. I'm actually relieved to have made this concious decision to move forward with this for somehow I feel like this is my calling.  You see, God didn't preserve my life for no reason for there is a reason and that is to reach the masses and to reach the drug dealer, drug addict,  prostitute, gangsters and even the pimps or someone who is in the gay lifestyle and victims of molestation and rape.  I came from all of it and I am the only girl that survived all of that that I was out there with in that type of a lifestyle and got out to only turn to the gay lifestyle for my extreme fear of being intimate with a guy. Being with a ma...
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Judgment

Lord only knows that I have some major healing to do from my childhood and my earlier adulthood.  I have been through the wringer and I am tired of battling sexual trauma and borderline personality disorder and autism.  When I make mention of having a mental illness I am tired of being misunderstood by my peers and I am tired of the stigma that goes along with having two very severe things illnesses.  I'm tired of struggling with things myself to the point of view of feeling like I am always looking in as a outsider. I am tired of the preconceived ideas  contempt to prior investigation. People judge me without taking the time to get to know me before they just dismiss me! Karla
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New Identity in Christ

Trying to find my true identity as Karla has been a nightmare in my life for when I was a child I was stripped of my innocence and it has been a real challenge for me. Being that I said all of that I have a mental illness/ disorder that I rarely talk about. I was diagnosed with having borderline personality disorder at the age of sixteen years old and all I know is a true empty feeling of not feeling like I am not enough.  That is a very classic symptom of bpd.  My borderline personality disorder was much more worse when I was younger. I was abused by men and I was groomed as a child to be someone's meal ticket so it comes to no surprise that I ended up in the business of prostitution when I was a young teenager.  I was taught that I was only worth something if I could satisfy a man's needs. I confused love for sex. A second sign of borderline personality disorder is a extreme fear of interpersonal relationships and yet I went to great lengths to build relationships with...
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